Our Precious Gift

Isaac Kristopher McFadden, born Wednesday May 26Th at 12:45 am. The birth of my sweet little boy did not play out like I planned in my head. A c-section never entered my mind but after being in labor for 18 long hours I no longer cared about my agenda.

When I really had the chance to look into the his eyes for the first time I was brought to amazement that God would be so kind to Kris and I. I know everyone says it but I can't believe how much I love this person that I do not even truly know yet. I am constantly checking his bassinet to make sure he's breathing. I am constantly praying, ' God please protect him and keep him safe'. Ultimately I know his life is in God's hands even though I am going to do my best to protect him.

Having a child brings a new meaning to responsibility.I am aware of how I need God's grace every hour and every moment of the day. I wrote in another blog post a couple of years ago that I wanted to set a new foundation after me. God answered my prayer. I pray Isaac will carry on a new foundation for our family. One that is founded on the mercy and grace of Christ Jesus our Lord! Without him we have no foundation at all.

Thank Father God for giving my husband and this precious gift. I love Isaac so much! I pray for the grace to teach him your ways and show him your love. I pray his heart is captured by you at the earliest age possible.

In Jesus' name, Amen!!!

I never thought my life would change so much in less than a year. Not only did I get married but my husband and I are awaiting our little boy Isaac Kristopher McFadden to enter into the world in just a week! Again the redemption continues.

People who I do not know often ask me, "Is this your first?" My mouth says yes, but my heart immediately Say's no. I cannot help but think about the little one my husband and I aborted when I was in high school. It's not a guilt thing but a reminder of the grace of God on our lives. We do not deserve this gift but God is so gracious and so loving entrust us with another child.

When I went through post abortion counseling I named our aborted baby Tyler because God had given me a dream that he was a boy. How kind of God to give us another boy. What a forgiving God I serve. I can't wait until the day that I will meet Tyler.

I am also so anxious to meet Isaac. I am trying to use this time to sit and be with Jesus before my life is completely consumed by this precious little gift. I know God will have him arrive at the perfect time.

I am looking forward to hearing his first cry as he leaves my womb and comes into this world. I can't wait to touch him for the first time and hold him in my arms. I can't wait to watch my husband hold him and study his every feature. It will overwhelm me I am sure.

The pain will be worth it!!! There always comes joy out of pain:-)

Together at Last

After meeting a Buca Kris and I had many more conversations. I realized very quickly that Kris was wanting more than a friendship. I did not want to jump into anything or assume this was what God wanted. Why is it when I want to take things slow, God seems to speed up the process?

I remember one night talking to Kris on the phone and he told me, "The longer you know me, the more you will trust me." I would not admit it at the time but his character and consistency amazed me! At times I would have to admit that I was mean and stand offish to him. I was testing him. I secretly loved that it did not faze him one bit. He trusted completely in God not matter how much I freaked out!

Long story short Kris eventually won my heart! He asked me to be his girlfriend in November of 2008 and in only two short months on New Years at the stroke of midnight he asked me to be his wife!

We got married June 27th, 2009! I loved every part of the wedding. One of my favorite parts was walking down the aisle to Sara Groves, "He's Always Been Faithful To Me." When I look at my life every part of that song is true and continues to be true.

I cannot tell you how amazing it has been to share our story in the classroom with Amnion. It absolutely blows people away! I know God has so many plans for us and I can't wait to walk through it all! What a redeeming God we serve! I am reminded of it everyday that I get to come home to a man who loves me so well!

I could not have written a better story myself:) God is so fun!
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