I never thought my life would change so much in less than a year. Not only did I get married but my husband and I are awaiting our little boy Isaac Kristopher McFadden to enter into the world in just a week! Again the redemption continues.

People who I do not know often ask me, "Is this your first?" My mouth says yes, but my heart immediately Say's no. I cannot help but think about the little one my husband and I aborted when I was in high school. It's not a guilt thing but a reminder of the grace of God on our lives. We do not deserve this gift but God is so gracious and so loving entrust us with another child.

When I went through post abortion counseling I named our aborted baby Tyler because God had given me a dream that he was a boy. How kind of God to give us another boy. What a forgiving God I serve. I can't wait until the day that I will meet Tyler.

I am also so anxious to meet Isaac. I am trying to use this time to sit and be with Jesus before my life is completely consumed by this precious little gift. I know God will have him arrive at the perfect time.

I am looking forward to hearing his first cry as he leaves my womb and comes into this world. I can't wait to touch him for the first time and hold him in my arms. I can't wait to watch my husband hold him and study his every feature. It will overwhelm me I am sure.

The pain will be worth it!!! There always comes joy out of pain:-)