I love this song!!! He really does loves us just as we are:)
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Beauty in Suffering
Some of you may already know how tough the pass couple of years have been for me. I am not on the other side if this journey but I know there will be joy in the morning! The pass couple of years, although they have been painful have defined who I am in Christ, and have exposed what I have believed about God. One of the major things I have learned is that there truly is a cost in following Him. I 've learned that God hates religion. He wants my heart. He wants true devotion from me, not duty. That has been a tough pattern for Him to break in me. I can't believe sometimes that He loves me just because! I cannot believe that even if I don't pray or have a quiet time the His love does not change. My best times with Him are the moments when I just sit in His presence and I wait for Him to speak to my soul. No agenda, no time limit. Just waiting on Him. I want to share honestly and openly about what I have learned about God and about myself in this journey of suffering. I am not sure where you are as you read this, but I hope it will encourages your heart.
Through the suffering and the unknown, I've learned that...
Your feelings are valid.
God doesn't always spare His children from pain.
There will be mornings when all you can ask of God, is to let you breathe.
There will be mornings when you think, how can I make it through another day, let alone another moment!?
And you do. By God's grace, you do.
There will be times when an e-mail from a friend will come at the most perfect time.
There will be times when a friend will call you in the midst of your desperation, like she could hear your heart breaking.
Everything in you knows that you can turn back and you can't stand still. The only way is to moved forward, holding on to the One who establishes every step.
Along the journey friends will betray you.
They will say the wrong thing at the wrong time.
Sometimes they all they want to do is fix you.
Friends will let you down.
I've come to realize that they don't mean to, sometimes they speak out of their own brokenness.
Even your best of friends will not always be there in your darkest hour, it's usually because God wants to be.
God's love is so stubborn.
He will not let you go, even if you want to let Him go.
He'll cry with you and comfort you in ways you would have never expected.
And sometimes you'll even find yourself smiling in the midst of the pain.
There will be days that you'll receive glimpse of hope that reveal that somehow, someway, this will all makes sense.
Some days all you'll want to do is cry and even hate God!
Some day's you'll feel like you are suffocating, but it's usually because you are looking at the storm and not at Jesus.
Some days you'll burst out in tears at the most random moments.
There will be times that you'll minister to someone else's brokenness in the midst of your own.
At times you'll think, is this worth? God, please tell me this is worth it!?
I've learned in my brokenness that God does not always answer your questions.
You'll see others living out the dream you "think" you desire.
He'll call you to trust in the unseen, to believe that He's trust-worthy even though your trial says He's not.
The best lesson I have learned through my suffering, is when everything falls away, He truly is ENOUGH!!!
Through the suffering and the unknown, I've learned that...
Your feelings are valid.
God doesn't always spare His children from pain.
There will be mornings when all you can ask of God, is to let you breathe.
There will be mornings when you think, how can I make it through another day, let alone another moment!?
And you do. By God's grace, you do.
There will be times when an e-mail from a friend will come at the most perfect time.
There will be times when a friend will call you in the midst of your desperation, like she could hear your heart breaking.
Everything in you knows that you can turn back and you can't stand still. The only way is to moved forward, holding on to the One who establishes every step.
Along the journey friends will betray you.
They will say the wrong thing at the wrong time.
Sometimes they all they want to do is fix you.
Friends will let you down.
I've come to realize that they don't mean to, sometimes they speak out of their own brokenness.
Even your best of friends will not always be there in your darkest hour, it's usually because God wants to be.
God's love is so stubborn.
He will not let you go, even if you want to let Him go.
He'll cry with you and comfort you in ways you would have never expected.
And sometimes you'll even find yourself smiling in the midst of the pain.
There will be days that you'll receive glimpse of hope that reveal that somehow, someway, this will all makes sense.
Some days all you'll want to do is cry and even hate God!
Some day's you'll feel like you are suffocating, but it's usually because you are looking at the storm and not at Jesus.
Some days you'll burst out in tears at the most random moments.
There will be times that you'll minister to someone else's brokenness in the midst of your own.
At times you'll think, is this worth? God, please tell me this is worth it!?
I've learned in my brokenness that God does not always answer your questions.
You'll see others living out the dream you "think" you desire.
He'll call you to trust in the unseen, to believe that He's trust-worthy even though your trial says He's not.
The best lesson I have learned through my suffering, is when everything falls away, He truly is ENOUGH!!!
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