Dear Abba,
I think the most difficult decision I have ever made was to follow You. Don't get me wrong, I could not imagaine where I would be if you were not Lord over my life, but walking with You is no piece of cake. Your standard for me seems to get higher and higher the more I know You and fall in love with You. The theme of my life right now is that I can't live this life with out You. I am so desperate for You. Desperate to want You more than what I think I NEED! I am desperate for your truth to reign when my feelings are false and seem to be taking over my entire being.I am desperate for my circumstances to not shake me because I am so secure in who You are and who You say that I am.
Abba, why is love so difficult? The call to love says, I will lay my life down for you, I will risk giving you my heart again and again and again even though you might hurt me. The call to love says, I will give up the "right" to be understood. The call to love says, I will forgive you again and again and again and will not hold a record of wrongs. The call to love says, I will surrender and believe the best about you or the situation. So hard to do! I am so thankful that I am NOW a slave to righteousness. I can walk in love and live this "impossible" life out but it's a choice. I choose You today. I choose You over my feelings and emotions. I choose You over my circumstances, failures, and short comings. Thank You for loving me where I am. Thank You for loving me despite my struggles. You are my only hope!
1 comment:
this is so good. you should put it on the 'girlfriend blog'. i love honesty!!
aren't you glad that people don't own your heart, and God DOES? so when you put yourself out there, and get hurt, your heart is still enveloped in God's, safe and secure. even when you don't feel that it's true. love you!
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