My Sin!

Why is it that the closer I become to Jesus, the more I am aware of my sin? The past couple of days the sin of anger feels like it owns me. The same tongue that praises God and tells students of their worth, is spewing out profanity. The sad thing is, I don't regret it in the moment. Sometimes I think, if people really knew my thoughts they would think I am the meanest person in the world! My church (Cornerstone Christian Fellowship) is going through this amazing time with the Lord. Every time we meet together to pray the Spirit comes. It's just fun to be in church because we never know what He is going to do. There is so much Freedom in this place, I love it!!! At the same time there are those moments when I hear people crying out in desperation for His presence and I am thinking how much they are annoying me because I am having a crappy day. I hate how everything offends me. I am so easily offended! When will I not let my feeling dictate what's true? Right now I am in a place that if Jesus doesn't come and rescue me from myself, I am never going to change. I feel so helpless and powerless. Someone said to me today, " I have come to a place where I have to accept myself. With all my junk and all my failures, because He has." Of course I have a song that began to break through my hardened heart. May God's power rest on you who struggle in a different way. There is hope. He is powerful enough to save of from patterns that still try to take us captive.
Love you all!!!

In Desperate Need of His Grace,
Toni